Tuesday, 9 April 2013


The Dreamer’s Dance

 

Evening breezes swept us high up off our feet,

To where voices of Heaven are heard.

Up to sit on clouds, tasting evening dew.

Me with you.

To sit on stars and planets, hazed and blue.

We danced around, forgot ourselves,

Swaying in each other’s arms till twilight.

We mirrored and parried,

We laughed and we carried,

Slowly drifting down to creation’s earth,

We leapt and splashed in inch-deep puddles,

And kicked the dew back to the sky,

Causing darkened heavens a-reply.

We waltzed and twisted,

Swung and assisted,

Til sweet raindrops raced down our tender faces.

So we sat for a while- silent.

                                                            We sat for a while as moonlight held us.                         

And as the breaking sun reached its dawning mark,

As the birthing light swelled the dark,

We spoke our first, gentle words,

Of love, truth and dignity.

Yours was an angel’s voice,

Of love, truth and dignity.

Our voices rose and fell with tremor,

We spoke of treasure, Venice and Rome.

And as ‘we’ turned to ‘us’,

We looked here, this and thus.

The hands of our souls firmly clasped,

The sweet harmony of our hearts singing.

Your feet beside mine swinging.

The little things- your smile, your eyes,

All added up, all made sense.

Still, I closed my eyes for a moment,

Seemingly for years…

And awoke as the sun reached it yellow heights,

As the rays of warmth found the flaming lights,

I turned, but you were gone.

Leaving no signs of arrival,

Leaving so signs of survival.

                                                         *    *    *     *    *

I’ll arise from my slumber, when the dream is truly over.

But now I rest with the after-tastes, sat in fields of clover.

My dreamish state fades away like grains of sand.

I awake to this harsh reality, hoe to hand,

Of hate, lies and ignominy.

I’ll look into the eyes of the earth,

And see hate, lies and ignominy,

Wishing my slumber would last for hours,

And think of bliss, and evening sun.

As for now, I’ll day dream my life away,

Hoping sleep will come to me.

Hoping you’ll be seen again,

When I dream once more,

Wherever evening breeze will take me,

Back where Heaven’s voice is heard.

Sunday, 7 April 2013


Blind faith

-a convention short story

 

He was coming. We had heard the rumours for several days; we had listened to the excited chatter of distant travellers. This amazing, healing man was coming to Jericho – the city was brimming with suspense. The anticipation was thick and tangible. You could sense the awe, the expectation, the fear all jumbled together in a giant cauldron of feelings. It was rumoured that from miles away you could hear them coming, like a mighty army marching down to battle, and it was easy to understand why the authorities feared them and why they wanted this man. But here, sat under this fig tree, it all seemed so distant and made-up, as for me, I have no part to play in this story.

Rain pounds thick on my face, its droplets soak down my eyes and follow their path down to sit upon my broadening cheeks. The salty liquid slips from the tips of my hair, down onto bare feet, my head tilts up towards the heavens, my ears filling with the euphoria of the rain’s drumming beat. The wind sings its high-octave song, the leaves crackle and clash, the waves thunder and thrash. My body is soaked wet with freedom. The rain releases my soul. It brings me back to where I started, back to where my thinking began… Someone once told me: Seeing is believing. I only believe. To me, it’s a choice. Others will never understand. The years go by, it’s all the same for them, all so different to me. I’m an outcast. They like to call me a nobody, a figure they try to avoid. It doesn’t matter to me-because I’m always journeying, always moving on and forgetting them, like some old sojourner on an eternal pilgrimage.

We sit on these wet rocks and wait far outside the city’s mighty gates. Waiting for nothing. You can always tell it’s one of your own kind: the shuffling of clumsy feet, the heavy smell of dirty clothes, the stench of unwashed bodies, the usual scratching of long, knotted beards and the ruffle of robes shifting and fidgeting. We sit, as always, never breaking our code of silence, waiting for a miracle.

It was just as the heat was settling and the evening breeze began to drift into night, that the first touches of reality were felt. It was felt through the tremors in the voices of excited travellers, in the heavier breathing of mules and horses, and in the distant child, running and laughing. He was near. A group of travellers had set up camp, close to where we lay, they spoke almost without ceasing about this man, the prophet man, who healed the blind, cleansed lepers and even forgave sins. What man forgives sins? Only God forgives sins!

I cannot sleep. I am riveted with the thought that he might finally be here. Something that one of them said, weighs heavy on my mind,

‘This man, is so much more than we all first thought. This man, might be the Messiah, the chosen one, This man, is greater than our feelings, deeper than our thoughts, he’s more than a human prophet, more like a bridge from man to God, from heaven to earth.’

 For a moment, I lost a grip on my senses and looked reality dead in the eye. For a split second, Heaven came crashing down to earth, like some explosive cosmic supernova filling the night sky, like light bursting through darkness revealing truth in all its beauty. I didn’t sleep.

I am silent and listening. Waiting for fulfilment and waiting for my hopes to be confirmed. Then I heard it: a distant marching, a faint vibration, the rumbling of a thousand men, the chatter of a multitude of women, the laughter of child upon child. They were here! I scrambled from my rock and began to run towards the road. I couldn’t miss them, I wouldn’t miss them, but I am blind. My foot slams hard against a stone, I trip and fall headlong onto rocky ground, the unforgiving rocks bite away at my clumsy body, my knees, my feet, my hand, are open and bleeding. I keep going in a frantic frenzy not to miss them, not to miss him. I must be healed, but I know I can run no further, I cry out,

 ‘Son of David! Son of David!’

In my blind panic I feel my way to the road with my hands, crying out with all my might, scraping away rocks and thorns in vain. I sit and wait.

I hear them come. My chance is now, so I shout out in a loud voice,

’ Jesus, son of David! Have mercy upon me! Son of David! Have mercy on me!’

I hear the grumblings from the crowd, and with bitter disgust they try to keep me quiet,

 ‘Be on your way!’

’ Don’t bother the master!’

But I cry out more, desperation straining from my voice, from my very soul,

’Jesus! Son of David! Have mercy upon me! Have mercy upon me!’

With that I sink to the floor, my energy spent, my soul drained.

But then hope.

‘Get up!’

‘Cheer up!’

‘The Master calls you!’  

I hesitate, doubts and fears, worries and uncertainties, all hit me, but without uttering a word, he simply speaks my name,

’Bartimaeus’

 I cannot help but fall to my knees I cling to his coat and between the sobs I utter out,

‘Rabbi… I want to see!’

Even as the words fall out of my mouth, Heaven hits my heart. His love overwhelms me, His peace draws me to Him, and His joy fills my soul.

‘Go, your faith has healed you!’

And then it happened, colour drains in from every corner, light bursts through darkness, I am overcome, I cannot utter a single word, I cannot think. Trees leapt out at me, flowers sparkle, the sky so blue, the grass so green! All the things I heard of, all these things I had felt, I now saw! I laughed almost uncontrollably. The unbelievable- believed, the madness all made sense, the confusion cleared, my life created anew, my heart restored and my body healed! The others dance and laugh and share my joy as we go on our way.

He heals me. He restores my soul. He makes me new. He has finally come. My story is Him.

Someone once told me. Seeing is believing – I just to believe. To me, it’s a choice, others will never understand. The years go by and it’s all the same for them, all so different to me. Often I’m an outcast, they like to call me a nobody, a figure they try to avoid, it doesn’t matter to me-because I’m always journeying, always moving on- following him, an old sojourner on an eternal pilgrimage.

Saturday, 6 April 2013


Passing Nightshade
 
- a poem on stars

 

Tumbling blocks of dazzling light, rumbling towers held in flight,

Holding ground, far and near, twisting flame, shining sphere.

Dotted scene, knotted shapes, distinct form, on darkened ‘scapes,

Mapped on minds, held with fear, a sense of awe, and ever clear.

As fallen gods upon their thrones, azure and silver, all deep tones,

Fiery, flaming foxes hunt, tumbling bears, big and runt.

Distinct face– white on black– dog and man above, attack,

Their arrow-marks stain the sky, a painter’s magic set to fly.

These giants simmer, seethe and blend, waning to a boundless end,

But, sunrise pinks reveal their course, euphoric darkness shows the source.

The dusty moonlight turns to morn, aching light rivets, torn,

Breathless twilight hides its figure, hauled and bruising by the bigger.

   As fading dark gives way to light, this waking land emerges bright,

Scarlet blood slips down the hills, birthing light beckons, thrills.

Dazzling colours, scarlet sky, haunted forests, trees so high,

Birds begin their morning song and fly on journey’s far and long.

The day-break sun begins its rise to heights so glorious in these skies,

Gracing every bird and flower, tipping clouds bound to tower.

We see a beauty in this art, a streaming joy from God’s own heart,

Tender souls warm to this view, but hardened minds freeze out what’s true.

This scene soaked in celestial thought, an act from heaven captured, caught,

For it is here that hearts are made; it is here in past nightshade.